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Tuesday, July 28, 2009 @ 7/28/2009 03:56:00 AM
oh man. I'm having problem with blogspot! I can't upload photos!! But, it's okay. I shall just use words. Many things happen over the past few weeks. Firstly, i'm back to single again. After close to a 3 years r/s.. I know most of you find it to be a rather shocking news. "like, why so sudden?" It's not like we have been quarreling and stuff. We are still doing what a normal couple does. Went for a date, dinner, movie, and etc. But, after being together for so long, I begin to question myself if i still love him? It's not like i have fall for another guy. In fact,i feel that it is more like a habit when im with him. I'm just too comfortable whenever im with him. He is like a part of my life, like my family. A person who really know and understand me well. After all these years, he really fulfil his duty as a bf. A guy who really pamper me in every aspects. Whenever i am having problems, he will find me a solution. Whenever i am feeling down, he will guide me back on track. Whenever i have any doubts, he will clarify for me. He did so many little things to show his love for me. Like, - giving me a wakeup call everyday for the past 35mths. - willing to pick me up first before heading to our destination. (eg: he stays just a few stops away from town,and he is still willing to take train down to my place then back to town together with me.) - requesting to carry my bag for me for fear that its too heavy or that im tired. - insisting to send me back home(right to the doorstep) every other days when we are out together. - willing to sacrifice his jacket for me when im cold. (even when he's feeling cold too.) - always trying to find out nice places for chilling or dining during our dates. - learning to cook/ bake just for me. (eg: baking cake, cookies, fruit salad and etc.) - bringing me to places where i have never been to. - willing to forgo his ARSENAL matches just to be with me. - willing to wait for me time and time again whenever i am late! ( In fact, im late almost everytime i meet him. And it's not just 5 or 10 mins. It could go beyond 15 - 45mins! It was only until recently that it has reached his limit, and that he blew it off. I don't blame him for that. I totally deserve it.) - always stays up late just to wait to call me when im about to sleep *everynight. (which is usually ard 3 - 4am) - he gets along very well with all my friends, and they totally like him. :) - he always give in to me eventhough it is not to his liking. - he always remembers to heart everything that i told him. - he always ensure that i have my meals. (to prevent the fainting spells.) - he puts me in priority before his friends. - takes very good care of me when im sick. - plan out my day (eg: time to wake up, travelling time, and night plans etc.) - planned many pleasant surprises for me. (Birthday, anniversary and stuff..) (Always ensure that i recieved the best from it) and if i continue to go on, i believe that the whole page would be filled with it. He is definitely a nice guy. But the problem is with me. I have lost my feelings for him. It's not because he did me wrong, but its more of a habit thingy for me. He's there for me because im comfortable with it. I wouldnt want it to be that way! Cause it is so unfair to him. It seems as if i am taking advantage of him cause he is always in the giving end, and im in the recieving end. I just can't make the extra effort for him. Cause it's like, i always believe that he would understand it and stuff. But really. I wish i had done more for him. Really hated myself for being so numb to everything. That's why i believe that if he would to be my friend, i would have treated him better. It's because, i somehow prioritise my friends over r/s over this years. In me, i believe friends are for life, that's why i wouldnt want to lose the opportunity to build up our friendships. I know some people would not have approve my way of priortizing. I have been trying to find a balance in my life. I wouldnt want to lose both. Got to spare some time for all sides.(incldg my family!) Anyway, besides all this, i also believe that having a character too similar to each other is also another bad points. Yes, we always thought of the same thing at the same time, we react to situation similarly and etc.. Whatever he have done, i know what he is roughly up to. Whenever we quarrel, we kept quiet, and a while later we are back together again.(like nth happened) It's because of this, we have never really solve any quarrel problems. Also, we rarely sit down and talked about our feelings for each other. So, i guess that somehow contribute to me feeling rather numb in this r/s. Therefore on that fateful night, when he popped me a question asking me "how do i feel about our r/s since we are nearing to our 3rd year.?" That was when i decided to say it all out. He did mention that he can feel that im losing my feelings in him. I told him that i couldn't see him as my future husband and such, but he told me that he could see me as his future partner.. It was really a one sided love in this relationship, and i know it wouldn't work as it would be unfair to him. And it was really a difficult night for me and him. As i was his 1st ever girlfriend, i was very worried on whether if he can deal with the sadness exploding inside him. I can totally feel how hurtful he was when he took out his ring and passed it to me asking me to keep it. It was when i totally broke down and cry. Suddenly realising how different things are going to be from then on. The ride back on cab that night was the most unforgettable ever. Having him hugging me and stroking my hair continuously marks our last journey. It was really unbearable, but i really hope that he can get back on track again in life. I sincerely would like to thank you for all your LOVE given to me during the whole 35 mths. Would definitely remember and treasure every little things you did for me. And im really sorry for all the dissapointments i have caused you to have. It have been a wonderful journey for me and i never regretted any bit of it. Hope that we can be friends soon as i do not wish to lose such a great person in my life. I understand that it may be hard for you, but i will give you all the time you need. Please know that if you have any problems and such, im always here for you. Once again, thank you for everything... :) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Have been meeting my friends alot during the past few days. - Went Johor with lurvies, hazel and jon for some very nice BAHKUTEH, awesome mani and pedicures session, seafood dinner and very cheap carwash! - Went gym-ing with lurvies and jon at fitness first, had dinner at wasabi-tei with them and jon's family. (had my virgin taste of raw sashimi,swordfish and some jellyfish.), went to lurvies's home to visit her new mini maltese - lexie! (ultra tiny!), we drove to pick hazel and cinda up for a supper session at hollandv's swensens. - Went doubleo with kaze, ghp, nic, and nic's friends to celebrate nic's birthday. Had awesome fun at the mambo dancefloor! kaze puked all over the floor after drinking down all the stuff nic stuff into his throat. HAHA! Anyway, we went to a nearby coffershop for some bahkuteh. lol. (im such a fan) And we took cab back to nic's place before he drove me back home with his car. Thanks for the ride home and HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD MAN! :) - Went to Enroute 14c opening party. It was hazel's friends's company party which showcases some of the local art design. Tigerbeer sponsored their event, and there were plenty of tigerbeer for everyone! I didnt drink though. hahaha! sorry, i dont drink! Anyway, we finally got to know hazel's group of friends. A friendly bunch of them :) haha. After which, we headed down to zouk, managed to get in for free thanks to nicole tay(hazel's friend)! Went off to Phuture with lurvies as we generally prefer Rnb songs..so yah.. It was fun dancing with her! :) And we left shortly after.. Thanks hazel for inviting us! - Went butterfactory with lurvies and her friends.. It was a scary experience. First time seeing my friend getting drunk and acting damn funny. Was practically baby-sitting her everywhere she go. Wanted to cry already can. Thank god one of her friends are still kind of a lil sober, so i got help from him too. It was then that i remember what hazel said was true. When lurvies is drunk, she like to keep repeating scentences. She said this that day when i was pulling her through the crowds. "Ignore me, im drunk. Ignore me, im drunk.Ignore me, im drunk.Ignore me, im drunk.Ignore me, im drunk. Ignore me, im drunk.Ignore me, im drunk.Ignore me, im drunk.Ignore me, im drunk.Ignore me, im drunk." (and she keep smiling after she said that. LOL..) Also, she talks like a child man. seriously.. haha. In the car, was the worse.. Jon was driving..lurvies suddenly crawl to the back seat! (from my view, she freaking give me a ZHEN ZHI feeling, instead of climbing out of the tv, she crawl from the front to the back!) And her look she gave me damn funny. Not long after, she started pulling my hair and jon's hair freaking hard! haha, gawd i want to kill her. Then she kept blabbling about WHY CHARLINE YOUR HAIR IS BLONDE?x10 and WHY YOUR HAIR IS BROWN?x20 All i can answer her is, OH, im going switzerland ma, thats why i go dye blonde to become angmoh lo! LOL... And i even made promised with her to dye our hair brown. (Doing the lil pinkie thingy) - she forced me to k! When we have reached my block, she decided not to let go of my hand. and man! she got the strength! I couldnt release her grip! Got jon to help me, and in the end he suffered a bite mark from her. HAHHA.. omg.. She grabbed it so hard, i still got the nail mark i suffered from her k! It was only when she finally become sensible that she said, okay lah.. you can go.. Then the next thing she tried to do is... to freaking BITE MY HAND! LOL.. lucky my reaction is quick man.seriously.. Oh well, it was a scary experience like i said.. SO, LURVIES CHIA! You owe me man! lol Okay bah.. I believe this entry is wordy enough. I hope i have not bored you guys.. There are still quite a few past events i have not blogged about.. so, till next time! :) (ps: i wanna sing K!) Friday, July 17, 2009 @ 7/17/2009 07:11:00 PM
Why Chris Brown Beat RIHANNA. Wednesday, July 8, 2009 @ 7/08/2009 04:41:00 PM
KOREAN FEVERRR! We Got Married - BEST SHOW EVER..  Its damn funny and interesting can! One of the guy[Yi hoon san bae] from Boys over flowers are also in this show.. It's about different celebrities got paired together(producer gets to decide the pairing) to become "Husband and wife". They got to stay together in the same house, go for honeymoon, complete mission given to them, go throught wedding shoots together and etc.. It's very interesting to see how they try to get along with each other.. How the guy try to win the girl heart over.. How they solve conflicts among them.. Anyway, im still watching it. Hazel got hooked to it.. LOL If you are bored, you can go to www.mysoju.com to catch this show.. FULL HOUSE  The house is SOOOO PRETTY! Rain damn cute in the show. hahaha MY GIRL  This show is currently showing in channel U.. CINDERELLA MAN  BOYS OVER FLOWERS  MILLIONAIRE's FIRST LOVE - MOVIE  This show is kinda sweet eh.. Majority of the show, i watched it in Jakarta.. HAHA It's so cheap to buy DVD from there! Cheaper than Msia..So ya loh. PLEASE CATCH THE SHOW - WE ARE MARRIED! :) |
